Christians what do you call a so called chrisitan that says I need a good shake up from satan?

All becasue I speak my my mind against falsue prophets, stick up for myself, all becasue I have been talking to a girl that is wiccan, all becasue I have a mental illness etc. I was told this morning by this so called chrisitian I need to be shaken up and roughed up by the devil for me to repent. I feel depressed now. I was having a god day lisning to worship cds, just loving God and I go to a chrisitan website and they are still slandering me, and one of them said I need to be shakien up by the devil. I have already been shaken by him wiht my quilt pulled of my bed, levetated in the air, punched in the face woken up with brises I never had, I could go on but I won't. I was suicidal the other day, but had divine interverevtion that is why I am still here. I feel half on me just wnat to kill myself and get it over with becasue I feel like a peice of crap. In my mind I want to get the knife out out the draw again, but this time go though it. Becasue I do not belong here in this world. I